I am drawn so much closer to God when things aren't going my way. I'm quick to give praise and recognize that it's Him when good things happen, but then I carry on with life and put Him on the back burner. This week I have prayed desperately. The kind of prayer where you realize that really, something's not going to happen unless God steps in and makes it happen. I don't talk much about my faith here because I'm honestly not proud of it. I am a believer. I have a relationship with God, but it should be so much more. I'm afraid of what it means to get back there. The embarrassing truth: I've read my Bible and devotionals more these past four days than I have in...if I'm honest, years. Literally, years. This morning I read a familiar passage, Mathew 6:26-33, especially being touched by this part.
'...You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, "What will we eat?" or "What will we drink" or "What will we wear for clothing?" For...your heavenly Father knows that you need these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.'
We obviously have food to eat and clothes to wear, it's just that God is teaching me whatever it is that we need, He will take care of us. It sounds too simple, but He already knows what I need. And in His timing He gives. Meanwhile, He uses that time to draw me to Himself. Minutes after I read that passage I got a call from Mike with a specific answer to our prayer. I waited four days and God answered me. After He waited years for me to answer Him.