Ella, Again

As I mentioned in my last post, 'nap time' means Maxwell usually naps (sometimes) and Ella has quiet time. This is my time to have to myself. I fold laundry, read blogs, do something mindless. But lately I've been drawn to Ella's room. It's rare that I have time with just one of my twins. And as much as I just want to be alone with myself, sometimes it's better to be alone with them. In this case, two posts in a row, to be with Ella.

When I opened her door and found this beautiful mess, I tucked this moment in my heart. Sometimes I make myself put the camera down, but today I wanted every detail. The sweetness of her voice, the innocence in her questions, "Mom, when I grow up I can be a real princess, right?" The waves in her hair, the round of her tummy. My babies are growing and it feels like this season of life is changing. It's been just Mike and I, and Max and Ella. And soon they'll be ready for the rest of the world. School, sports, work for me...life. It'll be good- for all of us.

But this has been so good. God gave me the desire of my heart. I got to be a Mama after I couldn't get pregnant. I got to stay home with them. And now there's this panic in my heart that it's ending. But I know better than that, every stage has been better than the last. I'm just not ready for change.

Our girl, The Super Hero Princess.