Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Discouraged

I feel...discouraged. We had an Dr. appointment on Monday to see how the medication was working. Everything looked good and we were to come back on Wednesday for our final appointment before the egg harvest (sounds so weird). As of Monday, Dr. thought we would be in L.A. for the egg harvest on Friday or Saturday. Mike met me at our appointment this morning and I felt hopeful and excited...no more shots after today!

A quick recap of the appointment: Doctor was late. Doctor did a 'practice embryo transfer' with a catheter, very uncomfortable and now I have slight bleeding and a little cramping. Eggs need more time. Keep with the injections for a couple more days. Egg harvest probably not until Sunday or Monday. Mike asked for clarification about the process and nurse laughed at the question and made us feel dumb. The parking lot is stupid and crowded, both of us could barely get our cars out. Another appointment tomorrow morning at 7:15 a.m.

Sunday is not far away. There really isn't a reason I should be disappointed, I just feel...done. It seems like the doctor and staff aren't giving us the consideration they did when we first started coming. I'm ready for it to be over.

2 comments:

Cristine said...

It's ok to feel discouraged Meghan..you are going through a lot of hard times, physically and emotionally...but they won't last good times are ahead for you and Mike! You are SO brave and SO strong!!
...for God Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. I will not, I will not, I will not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let you down nor relax My hold on you! Assuredly not! Hebrews 13:5

Anonymous said...

Hi Megs
I finally figured out how to post a comment on here. Your mom is right. You are going through so much right now but soon these tough times will be a distant memory because your dream of having a baby (babies?) will come true. I admire your amazing attitude and am so proud of you. I love you guys. Crystal